Vintage – By Patricia McCowan

Christine spots the suit towards the back of the dusky shop. No, the suit spots her. She has escaped her desk at the brokerage for an illicit lunch hour. She has taken a long walk away from the towers, found a street of little brick buildings and grime. Now, inside, Christine makes sure her cell is off, checks over her shoulder. Just the burgundy-haired girl at the counter, idly flipping through an old Life magazine. Christine stands in place, prolongs the moment, describes to herself what’s caught her: Size Eight Ladies’ Tailored Grey Suit, 1930’s. Severe, sombre. Her breathing slows, the musky smell of the place like a tranquilizer. She goes to it. She reaches out and pulls the garment towards her, strokes the pleasurably raspy fabric of the jacket and matching skirt. The sensation catching on her nerves like tiny hooks. She narrows her eyes, pauses like a swimmer on a sun-heated dock, then slides her hand inside the skirt. Lined, she knew it would be lined. The old silk a thin barrier against the scratchy wool. She splays her fingers against it.

Maybe she could have it. Maybe she has to have it. She could buy it and a few faded blouses, pack a small, hard suitcase with underwear and stockings to be hand-washed in a sink at night and dried over the foot of a metal bed. Yes.

She’d take that suitcase and board a stale bus to a town with a Main Street of stubby buildings, brush-cut architecture. Buildings with bulky, solid doors and short staircases. No elevators. Buildings with windows that can open, with blinds that can close. In that town, Christine would carry her hard suitcase off the bus and walk alone in black shoes down the street. Men might tip their hats to her, women pushing strollers might nod and smile, but no one would talk to her, no one would need anything from her.

She’d come to a lunch counter. Push open the watery-glassed door. Inside would be a fan up on the greasy ceiling, pushing the air around, and a few men along the counter, reading newspapers in their shirtsleeves, suit-jackets and fedoras on the stools beside them. There would be a woman and her stooped mother at a booth, each nursing their lemonades with chipped ice, not looking at each other. A ballgame no one seems to care about playing on the radio by the cash. No one here has discovered rushing yet.

Christine would put her suitcase into a booth, slide in beside it, and order a ham and swiss and a coffee from the waitress with the friendly look about her. Maybe she’d even get a slice of pie. Nobody’s too skinny here, no one would judge her. The lunch would be satisfying but not filling, even with pie. There would never be too much of anything in this place, in these clothes.

She would pay her bill, putting paper money right into the waitress’s hand and getting change back as coins in her hand, and putting those coins in a change purse with a hard clasp that shuts tight, and putting that change purse in her handbag. You know where you are with a handbag.

She’d go freshen up in the ladies’ room, where a window looks out on garbage cans and a patch of dried-out grass with an empty teeter-totter on it. The children who played on that teeter-totter are gone, Christine would think, they’re grandparents, or maybe even dead. Time ticks on.

No! No, she’d look hard at her face in the mirror, convince herself to stop thinking like that. Time is malleable. She’ll powder her nose.

After, the counter girl will give her directions down the street and around the corner to the rooming house with the yellow front porch and a sparse row of marigolds huddled along the foundation. A short walk. Christine will go up the steps and knock on the quilted metal bottom of the door. She will peer through the screen to a narrow hallway, dark at one o’clock on a September day, and watch the landlady emerge from the kitchen at the back of the house and come towards the door, slowly, drying her hands on a well-used apron. Floor boards squeaking. Christine will be patient. She will put her trust in this woman.

She will live alone in a dull room upstairs, with a narrow bed and a dresser with the drawers lined in not-yet-yellowed newspapers, and eat meals cooked by the fat, frazzle-haired woman emerging from the dark innards of the unfamiliar house. She will know only this as her future. A life of cold solitude and lack. And she will be content. Finally.

Christine lets the suit fall from her hands and it swings back into its proper place on the rack. Looks around, blinking. The girl at the front is staring out the front window, finished with the magazine. Christine should get back to work now. Things, deals, people — they’ll all be piling up. She pulls her cell phone out of her purse. Time is piling up. Christine stands very still.

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Patricia McCowan’s stories have appeared in the anthologies Dark Times, published by Ronsdale Press, and Cleavage: Breakaway Fiction for Real Girls, put out by Sumach Press. She has also had pieces published in both print and online versions of Maisonneuve Magazine. Her short story Reading the Field placed third in the Eden Mills Writers’ Festival and she was also invited to read at the Eden Mills Fringe with other up-and-coming writers. Patricia McCowan lives in Toronto.

  1. This is a wonderful story down memory lane; not mine, but my mother’s. I remember so well all the stories she told; the setting clear, the people familiar. I hear the baseball game, the Cleveland Indians I’m sure, as my grandfather listened on the radio, even though the game played on TV. The sensuality goes well beyond the senses, for we are intimately within Christine’s imagined world.

  2. The suit held the memories and I felt like I crashed to the ground when Christine put the suit back on the rack. We were back in 2009. What a wonderful story and it lingers even as I write this. Awesome to coin a phrase.

  3. Excellent mood piece. Yours is a rare skill. Thank you for sharing.

  4. beautiful, I was there with her, I could smell the clothes, the suitcase…. I wanted more… to be continued… chapter one of many more…
    Thank you for sharing this.

  5. Wonderful detail! It transports the reader, as well as Christine, to another place and time.

  6. Palpable, I felt like I could breath the air Christine was breathing. Wonderful way to critique the busy ‘choices’ we make daily.

  7. Time stood still as I read this wonderful piece. I could smell the musky smells, feel the textures of the suit, unclasp the purse (which I am certain was red leather with a golden clasp). I wanted to stay in that shop with Christine and live in the rooming house, appreciating the simplicities of a time gone by…… thank you Patricia.

  8. I really enjoyed your writing style – the way I was carried step by step with the wanderings of Christine. Wonderfully done!

  9. I don’t get it. Is Christine actually the imagination of the burgundy-haired girl behind the counter? Perhaps she is the jealous vintage car parked outside?… Too Steven King?? Really enjoyed it, Patricia. Congrats. It’s no “Captain Dynamic” mind you.

  10. Thanks everyone for taking the time to read and comment on “Vintage”. It’s gratifying to know you’ve enjoyed the piece. Long live short stories! And Captain Dynamic, I’d happily be too Stephen King if it meant I could generate his level of income.

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